Have
you ever felt your inner self set on fire? Or just felt that spark in you waiting to
be set ablaze?
Had you asked me, say nine months ago, where I wanted my life to be today, I would have said exactly where it is now. Back then I did
not know how that was going to be possible, but I knew the life I was living wasn’t ‘it’
for me. I knew and felt that I wanted more, to be more, to experience more, to do
more..
As fate would have it, I have found myself squarely
here. In a space where I can define a lot in my life, where I feel like I have
the power to gain back a level of control I lost. But at the same time,
ironically, a place of letting go of the said control. It’s almost paradoxical
right? I needed to let go of some level of structure through which I had lived
my life previously. I feel that I got overly caught up in planning; setting goals,
strategizing… making one year, five year, ten year goals, that I embraced too
much rigidity and almost forgot to live, to take risks, to just be.
I have always been a person of timelines, of written
down goals, of immense structure. Whilst this is an amazing thing, there’s a
fine fine line where said rigidity robs you of life, of your sparkle..
But now, I am taking time to smell the roses, living a
bit more fluidly. (Okay I won’t lie, goal setting and timelines will always be
a part of me..case in point, I just wrote up an Excel sheet of some goals I
have for the rest of the year J). But, but, the difference is I
am now doing it different, enjoying the process a whole lot more, putting
myself under less pressure and just living. Breathing. Embracing. Loving.
Being. And this side of life feels a whole lot better!
I am now getting back into blogging in a much
different mind space then how I initially began. This is me, back at my centre,
finding that zen. Being on fire, being alive. Challenging myself. Through the
blog, I want to be able to broaden my perspective. I want to get out there,
interact, engage, laugh while at it, grow.. That’s the stuff I crave for,
that’s what makes my pulse beat faster.
Through the blog, I would like to be able to interact
with and hopefully feature other like-minded people, of different ages, backgrounds, viewpoints,
upbringing, culture.. My dream has always been to take part in programs around
the world such as leadership programs, events, conferences and global events
with people seeking to make an impact in any way, shape or form. I am slowly discovering some fantastic programs such as the University of Oxford- Said
Business School’s Archbishop Tutu Fellowship Program (I've linked it here) and the Women Transforming Leadership Program (I've linked it here).
Truthfully, these programs target mid-career individuals and it can
seem out of reach for you or me to get a chance to ‘take a seat at the table’. However question is; how will change come about, if we young people do not boldly demonstrate why we
have the ability to be a part of such amazing forums.. and like sponges; absorb, absorb and
absorb! And equally so; contribute, challenge and contribute some more!
I hope to grow, to mature. To enjoy
the process, express, be genuine, real, consistent and authentic. To
confidently know and say that a year from now, I will be intrinsically the
same person, but with more maturity, more body, more fire, more life, more depth, and certainly with bigger dreams.
And I wish the same for you.
J
Love and light
